screen behind the mirror... tag@somya..

Believing in god (i took to 'gawd' courtesy those phoren paperbacks!!) was difficult cause he never beeped on my radar. i don even know if i have a gender bias (up there!) but still i aint complaining since i get a truck load of clothes for durga puja, sweets in diwali and just simple holidays for the religious overtones...
was trying to thread in a story for the new post... but then its still germinating inside :)
this is my first tag and i have only one to thank (translucent destiny... but words uncluttered:)) not being formal... words mean a lot n sumwhere i find they light up blog-o-sphere in delightful ways

there are many who have led me to shape up, grow up, (sometimes even refusing to... return to innocence) rise and fall... names n faces, moments, emotions, incidents n most important dreams- for all the rides down the lanes n bylanes, i thank thee all for being my 'god(s) of small things'!

(1) i have a bad habit... of giving gyan, even when u would just be looking for a patient ear! i mean good, i just try to plug in the holes of thought process n show the simple enlightened path. but u would be looking for a shoulder, just the support and instead get sermons- aint good naa?
just that i try to be the good samaritan...
and am impatient; just-in-time concept, somewhere cant wait for the apple to ripen n fall!!
and i dont forget incidents, non-commercial memory is damn sharp n it hurts sometimes... wish i could just move on- complete.

(2) first impression would be studious, no-nonsense, all-work-no-play guy! myth!!!!! never studied anything beyond english, bengali, mathematics and biology; no tricks in my bag to woo the examiner n get those % going! i can play round the clock n prefer debates, discussions... just words n no breaking ice issues with me! ya, am not diplomatic- sometimes the impressions hurt coz we all look for the sugar coated bitter pills (saccharine!)
they feel i run away from my age, but then fun in life can be in subtle different ways also!

(3) i can talk... ya, i can- on and off stage, i can but then not commercial. i cant sell you a new toothpaste. i can just give u an honest opinion. i love debating, discussing topics n trying to make a difference in life per se... with new faces also am my old self- maybe i cant market myself that good but then some precious things aint up for grabs naa!
words mean a lot to me and i like trying to paint things that are 'beyond words... beyond lines'
i feel what all i say n then it just pours out- words(worth) industries ltd. private sector!!

(4) i love... scribbling, reading, music, debating, badminton, football, travelling, swimming and eating! wanna write books someday :) current fav song is aajnabee ( janeeman), tere bin (wo lamhe) and from the phoren lands.... 'with or without u', 'boulevard of broken dreams', 'sound of silence', robert miles, enigma and GNR. love instrumentals and meaningful lyrics.
have travelled all over amchi india and now saving monies for the lands across the seas:)
hurts that am not a good singer but then the chords do string inside :)
n i love red, the seas n mountains, the rains, the blacks of the night, pet dogs, chocolates, coffee, my parker pen collection (esp. fountain pens i love!!) and driving!

(5) superstitous? nope. life has given me things the hard way; its not like self empathy but there has never been room for goodie charms... carrying flowers to exam halls, my old fountain pen and walking together with the same bunch for exams might seem odd, but then it felt good inside. and somewhere i have this feeling that things that happen to u very easy aint meant to be- soon they just wither away. so apprehensions aplenty. my pals think am pessimistically a realist; but trust me, i always dream of winds of change.... for just the smiles!

(6) i love dancing when no onez around! i can be the M. jackson, the Prabhudeva but then amen! hidden talents. but to be true there have been very few occassions when the heart has just leaped out of the rib cage n danced to the tunes around. i fear dunno what... but would really just dance a wild someday- cheers to life!! someday, someway.. yes!

(7) unpredictable- yes, but with people who would know that i don mean to wage a war or wreck havoc. to know that they take u as ur intrinsic... inside out they know, the moods surge sometimes. overall am just a normal biological sample. ya, to know more... let the sandy hour glass flow. sigh! lifez fast all around, so...

(8) i like people easily- YES! but then hurts when the images are offset from the object, the reality. i hate from the heart, i love from the soul and its visible. am not 'worldly wise'. rather i choose not to be! am humane, rustic, blunt but ya... am honest and not a hypocrit :)
but with times, emotions are penned, scribbled n the out bursts have come down. to be happy in a microcosm... but still ultimate dream of life... to have a whole bunch of friends... over coffee, looking back in life n smiling for all the tides of time- coz in life every relation matures from friendship only! and i do believe, trust, the goodness of life~


ps: a friend once said... everything in life ends in happiness n if it has not... then it is not over yet! ya, debatable.... but again with hope, the opium of life, i walk along!