the smile...

2006 would wrap up its dramatics in a few days. The changing of guards, the calendars and diaries- even the year planners would be put up, waiting to be filled in! The business war path planned, the educational track laid down or financial strategies chalked out- bull run or the market corrections! Celebrations in Goa, a zoom out ‘phoren’ trip or partying through the night and day- the cross of change!
The resolutions processed in our biological CPU’s, the dreams, wishes and sincere prayers for the Almighty, just for a rocking year ahead!
Looking back to the ’06 after the death of Christ, I feel strange. Like a tumble tosser ride! Before turning the pages, before signing off the 365 days of tête-à-têtes I take a moment to turn back and stare. And with the passing seconds… I cannot help but SMILE’!! J Emotions, threads of intangible elements have given way to mathematics and logic! Too fast and furious; what we know as lean and agile livelihood! Life is a lot more simple. Decisions are a lot more quick and the after effects absorbed with ease… and healing lot faster!
That life is an ever changing canvas, that colors and shades are composed of underlying hues and that some battles are never won, I realized with the days that melted into weeks and months.
But the most important thing that led to a halo around my head J was the sense of profound happiness! And that was at the fag end of this annual cycle!
The joys of life are relative, yes- but the expectancy of bliss should be minimal from the environs around! The pains of life, the have-nots and the damning questions that are never answered generate a lot of cloud- for which the self aint responsible.
The tricks of life, the physics of existence sometime lead to disasters but ya, we do come out with the rising sun and fight, dream, try to build the glass palace again. I realized how hapless a dreamer I am! And there was a joy in those dreams. And it is now a part of me- like a heady mixture of real and virtual that makes life vibrant- KALIEDOSCOPIC!

I have my bag of prayers, my selfish demands, my fears and scars to carry into the seventh year of the 2k series but the zephyrs from the year gone by would always make life fluttering!

Incidents, people, reactions, actions, responses- the seven saints in me (ah! U can get that from the translation of my name…) learnt that convictions in life never change and change might be a constant factor in life but the rhythms that play the joyous overtones within us never grow out. Phase shift into corporate whirlpool, first salary, travels to the hills of north east, responsibilities in team work, projects, tunes of new age music, elation over sports events and last but not the least- relations of life… 2006 was bountiful!
What I have and what aint there, the measures of existence can never be explained but as the smiles linger on and a mock salute is offered to the dying rays of a wonderful year, I must say- life’s a beauty and ‘the juice is worth the squeeze’!!

A happy new year to all of you out there… and hope the words never die, only get drenched in the vibgyores of life- like a pretty woman! Asta la vista ‘06