just a post... post 2008

It’s been a while since the words trickled. It’s been a while now that the blog has been given a word-lit! It’s been a while now that I have turned to myself with the reason to be selfish. But it’s not a while before another year would roll into our lives, with just about the baggage of yester-years.
Reflecting back never really adds to the grey matter wisdom and planning ahead with righteous thoughts and honest intentions also quite fall apart in the whirlpool of a seemingly ‘future perfect’; the new year just stays around like a harmless moment of truth decorated with fan-fare but lost in so many emotions. The irony of life catalyzes this brief interlude.
I do not know what made me scribble in a post that began without a nucleated thought. I do not know if the treatise, if I may call it one, would create a ripple effect for its reader…
The year that was, was good. The changing lanes from corporate to academia, the trek up country from the garden to the ‘maximum city’, from days of self income to monthly pocket-money, ya… hallowed be thy 2008!
Studies in human resource management did nothing to balance the offset of my life. Maybe even did not teach me enough to appreciate the subject. But left me enough to let the sarcasm roll over! In a way I was turning into a cynic who tried to run away from realities that meant nothing to him; rather trying to run after rolling stones which really had the momentum advantage! Stones I call, albeit life-less they weren’t. Huh! A futile imagery to hide behind; glorifying sadness is a way of self-pity, isn’t it? And so the year went on in common sense understandings, uncommon situations of acquaintance and the usual tryst of ‘wishful thinking’!! I mean the dreams, et all which do not take it account any realistic perimeter but just mutate around illogical premises to create the perception reality counters!
The year saw a lot of hope being invested even though the financial markets raped investments in stocks and shares. The recession and dark clouds over management placements – life can’t be holier than thou for the rat racers! Hope was also in a certain matrix reloaded version, applicable to my life. Hope was there for a repair work, a patch, a Norton antivirus to set things right on the substrate of human follies! But I guess, them soft-wares don’t work on live-wares! Words were said, written too, and even composed in poetic (in)justice towards a selfish dream – till the reality bytes nipped through this cancerous outgrowth! I might not make sense, might not appear logical but then yearend blues can complicate the renderings from my bittersweet symphony!
Some things end and some things never, but can both enterprise have a common node to start off from? Can birth and death complement each other in a symbiotic way (other than Ekta Kapoor’s K serial flicks!) Maybe yes… in all of twenty-four years, the constitution of life has not been amended too much but then aspects of life do not stand well defined always! The penumbral zone of life does not cease to exist. And as the year ends, and the year begins, there seems to be a cross-road. Maybe it’s time… for what? Would 2009 unveil but till then, as I watch the night sky turning orange and the zephyr blows with the chilly overtone, it’s a time for a sound of silence! For nothingness, for a vacuum with potential, for a year with a promise towards – life after death!
To happiness and health, to peace and simplicity, to trust and honesty, a great year ahead… my best wishes!